This whole weekend've been a messed up and teary one, i'm guessing its pms. Everything is not good enough for me, i've been like that all the time. I'm always not happy with what i'm given, only to notice how important and great it is when its gone, tell me about taking things for granded. Yeah i guess i always know all these but i dont do a shit, i just continue living in my own denial, whining about everything under the sky, or not. But what to do when i'm afraid of losing, afraid of being left behind, afraid of not being good enough. Its always about me, wanting to be the perfect nobody. Life's tough with so much things going on and i'm allowing those strong waves pushing me along. I dont know what i'm sad about, i really dont. But theres school, along with stress, new friends and old ones, not having enough time, not doing enough, not trying hard enough. Have been hanging out with primary school friends lately and i guess we're still the same old people. We might be pretty tight now but who knows when things will change?

WAIT, I THINK I'M THINKING TOO MUCH AND I SHOULD STOP RIGHT NOW BEFORE I STRANGLE MYSELF TO DEATH.